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I feel so lost
Four years spent
Trying to get
Something
To call my own
And grow the
fuck up
I can’t resent
the sun
Everyday when
I wake up
It fucks my head
I get stuck
In a rut
My apartment
Hides all
My fears
But the facade
Is breaking
I’m on my
Knees shaking
Save me
From me
I need help
I’m struggling
Forge my own disposition
I hate who I’ve become
Pick myself off the ground
I think I need some help
(I need fucking help)
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I’m blushing, how do you reciprocate
Your burning up my insides,
and my eyes looked so glazed
Been worrying, how’ve you been since high school,
lately you’ve been on my mind,
and how’s college been treating you?
You wrote me a letter,
found it in my dresser,
I stored down in the basement,
I guess that I should open it
Lately I’ve been dreaming about the past,
how nostalgic is that,
found your clothes in some old bag, should I assume you’d want them back?
It’s flooding my brain,
Different grades to different states
You lacked the confidence and drive, anxious, just trying to pass time
So I drove us to the lake, you’ve been swimming through my brain
Feels like it was just yesterday
Since I got in the way
We know by now
What that meant to us
We know by now
We had lost
My snowball packed tightly
Collided with a tree
Yours had a rock in it
So now I’m clenching my teeth
You seemed so sorry,
But couldn’t watch me bleed
It felt so serious
But looking back now, it’s funny
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And you could’ve promised me that this would never end
But I know you’re not prepared for that
When I’m next to you I feel just like a kid
The way you make me laugh, there’s so much more to have
All those late nights that we spent in your car
Replay in my head, I want that back
So let’s stay up all night, count the stars
no matter how far away they are
So tonight I’ll roam this broken town
Hoping for something to change
All the plans we made travel out west
Died with us, they had no chance
I’ll give you time and space to hold these feelings in
Or I’ll ruin all of this
And it’s terrifying, seeing you again
I never wanted this distance
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I thought you said you wanted something more than one night
And now you can’t text me back or look me in the eyes
What did I think I guess that this is no surprise
Drive back home and just leave me with all of your lies
'Cuz I-90 eastbound is too far from your town
To make this work and I’m feeling worthless
You told me you’d come back
But you never meant that
And now you’re leaving me with all this tragedy
If you had told me the end was this troubling
I wouldn’t have started this hopeless story
All promises broken
We lack the devotion
Stay away from me fuck you Schenectady
I thought you wanted more than one night
If we stay awake we’ll be alright
Let’s just spend time til the daylight
We don’t have to talk i don’t wanna fight
I’m over this
I’m sick of it
And moving on
Is just a burden
'Cuz I still fucking dream about you
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If you were more than a diminished return
Well you haven’t proven that yet
Your words they burn me like a cigarette
But that’d feel better than this
I finally moved past the all of the sleepless nights
And I’m feeling better again
Running from all of the burdens you gave me never worked, I don’t expect you to care
Better off alone that with you I don’t need you anymore
I’m suffocating and so frustrated
Did you care at all or was it all about control?
The insides of bars, they feel so airless
I should’ve expected you there
You smile at me and it makes me sick
You know how to play all your games
Fuck all your playlist, save all your problems
I can’t fix what isn’t there
Your time is up, you wasted mine
I’ll never get it back
I wanted so much more
Than what you could give
I feel so alone
I just can’t forget
You lied through your teeth
I just can’t forgive
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